Video Interview, Pat Collins and Judy Lawrence, June 6, 2012

  • PAT COLLINS: Sure.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: OK.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Are you rolling?
  • CREW: I'm rolling.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: OK, first thing we're--
  • PAT COLLINS: Now are you going to ask questions
  • go back and forth with us?
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: I think I'm going to start
  • with you primarily first.
  • PAT COLLINS: OK, that's good.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: And then I'll move to you.
  • And then we'll do a couple little duet things.
  • PAT COLLINS: That's more about how the sequence was anyway.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: Yeah.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: So for our microphone check,
  • first I need Pat, give me the correct spelling
  • of your first and last name.
  • PAT COLLINS: P-A-T. C-O-L-L-I-N-S.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: OK.
  • Judy?
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: J-U-D-Y. L-A-W-R-E-N-C-E.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: So Pat, let's first talk
  • about coming to Rochester.
  • PAT COLLINS: Well-- oh, sorry.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Talk to me about some
  • of the things that happened to you just
  • before you came to Rochester.
  • Particularly, you know, you had some issues
  • with the Girl Scouts and some discrimination
  • that you were facing.
  • So kind of set it up for me as you
  • were arriving into Rochester.
  • What were you coming from?
  • PAT COLLINS: I was coming from West Virginia.
  • And I thought I was the only lesbian in the state of West
  • Virginia for a long time.
  • Found out differently.
  • And it wasn't the Girl Scouts that
  • was discriminating against me.
  • It turns out that half of the staff
  • were gay, as I later found out.
  • But it was my parents.
  • They were a problem.
  • But I did have a bar that I could go to,
  • I found out about going to San Francisco.
  • And walked into a women's bar there
  • and they told me about this one.
  • But it's one of those you had a knock on the door
  • and wait until they opened the door and say the secret message
  • and then you could come in.
  • But it was when I went to the YWCA in York, Pennsylvania.
  • And the executive director there--
  • I was the program director and the camp director.
  • And the executive director told me, "Now, whatever you do,
  • I do not want you to hire any lesbians for camp."
  • But they had already passed a ruling nationally
  • that you may not discriminate.
  • But she says, "I don't care what national says."
  • And I said "Well, how will I know if they're gay or not?"
  • And she says, "Well, I don't know.
  • I just don't want them there."
  • And I said, "OK."
  • Well, at the end of camp she found out
  • I was gay and made me leave for two days, a leave of absence.
  • And I had already found the job in Rochester, thank god.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: OK, I'm going to pull you back a little bit now.
  • I want to start at that point.
  • Start it out with something, you know,
  • before I came to Rochester, I was working for the YWCA.
  • And then tell me the story about you just told.
  • PAT COLLINS: OK.
  • While I was in York, Pennsylvania I
  • worked for the YWCA.
  • I had just finished my masters in recreation administration.
  • And I had worked hard for that, I was thrilled.
  • But I was also their camp director.
  • And the executive director, when I was hiring staff,
  • told me not to hire any lesbians.
  • And I told her "Well, how will I know if they're lesbian?"
  • And she says, "Well, I don't know, but just don't hire any."
  • But the national YWCA had just passed a ruling that you cannot
  • discriminate against gays.
  • So anyway, we had a good summer.
  • And then the second summer was when I was director.
  • And at the very end of the summer
  • she found out that I was gay.
  • I think one of the counselors or somebody must have told her.
  • I did not tell the counselors, but somebody guessed
  • or something.
  • And she and the president came out and said, "Well, you know,
  • we want you to leave camp for two days
  • and you come back for the closing camp fire."
  • And she says, "You know, you know what we're talking about."
  • And I was just crushed.
  • I had been working my butt off.
  • I had done good programming, good camp season.
  • And you know, I couldn't take that kind of thing.
  • I'm a parent pleaser, a people pleaser.
  • And it was really quite dreadful.
  • You know, it still sticks in my mind today.
  • I should have sued them because I could have, I guess.
  • But I was too damaged by that time to do that.
  • So anyway luckily, I'd gone to American Camping Association,
  • met Anne--
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: Hedard?
  • PAT COLLINS: No, no, no.
  • A gal that was there and she was in Rochester
  • and said that that job was open as a full-time camp director.
  • And that was my goal was to be a full-time camp director.
  • Camp had been my rescue.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: OK, let's take a back
  • to getting the job in Rochester just
  • so we don't have the remembering of the name stumbling there.
  • So yeah, talk to me about going to the Camp Association meeting
  • conference and finding out about the job in Rochester.
  • PAT COLLINS: OK.
  • I went to the American Camping Association National
  • Conference.
  • And there I met a gal named Anne who
  • was from Rochester, New York.
  • And she told me there was this job opening.
  • And she also told me she was gay and I was gay,
  • so it was marvelous.
  • I thought, this is a perfect.
  • Applied for it and got it.
  • And so I was thrilled.
  • I gave it all I had.
  • We had wonderful camp sessions, lots
  • of new, innovative programming.
  • Hired a lot of good staff.
  • I had met a gal in York at the camp and she became my partner.
  • She moved up to Rochester to change schools after two years
  • to go to Brockport.
  • But the board of directors, one of the board members from the Y
  • here came out to see me at the beginning at camp
  • and said, "You tell that program director to move out
  • of your cabin or I will tell the executive director here
  • you're gay, and I'll make sure you never get a job
  • at any Y across the nation."
  • And she was gay herself.
  • She had been a friend to me before this.
  • And the program director and camp director
  • had always stayed in that little cabin together.
  • I wasn't doing anything new.
  • The fact that she was my partner, so what?
  • We were not going to be having wild sex at camp.
  • So I just-- again, you know, my heart just sank.
  • I just, I froze right there.
  • And so I had my partner move out.
  • And I didn't tell her why.
  • And I basically put my career ahead of her.
  • I told her I would tell her at the end of camp.
  • At the end of camp, she no longer wanted to be with me.
  • So I lost someone I really nurtured a relationship with
  • to have something special with.
  • That was hurtful.
  • But anyway, when I came to Rochester
  • there was the Lesbian Resource Center.
  • And I was thrilled, because there was nothing
  • like that in West Virginia, nothing like that
  • in York, Pennsylvania.
  • And it was like the size of a relatively large closet.
  • But Patti Evans was there, and these other two couple.
  • And it was just super to have that.
  • And then I found out about the Gay Brotherhood,
  • this was, of course, over at Monroe Co-op.
  • So we didn't have any meeting space.
  • So I asked the Gay Brotherhood if we could have a lesbian
  • meeting once a week there.
  • And they said yes, thank goodness.
  • So we marched up past the garbage dumpsters
  • and up the back stairs, but that was OK.
  • At least we were there.
  • It was a nice space, we started a library.
  • And then I thought the two should join.
  • You know, why don't we get together?
  • And other people were working on making that happen.
  • And we did.
  • So the GAGV was formed.
  • And I was thrilled about that.
  • I became a speaker for the agency, a peer counselor.
  • I lead the Lesbian Resource Center programs
  • and having different discussions.
  • Mary Lou Wells helped get the library together.
  • She was the social worker who trained the peer counselors
  • so we would know what we were doing.
  • And it was just wonderful.
  • I was there as soon as I finished
  • work and the end of the day, went home, ate my TV dinner,
  • let out the dog, and off I went to GAGV
  • and volunteered until at least nine or ten.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Step back a little bit here.
  • Again, you discovering the Lesbian Resource Center.
  • And what was it about that that you immediately
  • recognized that this is really an important place?
  • PAT COLLINS: It was a source of pride.
  • It was the first time I had seen lesbians come together
  • to say we're important.
  • We want to provide services for one another,
  • if nothing else but a little library.
  • It was the first time I'd been around anything that
  • said gay pride is important.
  • And I mean, that was just it was food for my soul.
  • It just brought glory to my veins.
  • It was marvelous.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Well, talk to me about your first meeting
  • with Patti Evans.
  • PAT COLLINS: Oh.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: What was she like?
  • What was so really great about working with her?
  • PAT COLLINS: Oh, she was very warm, very friendly.
  • Pretty gal.
  • Very welcoming to me, willing to you
  • know, answer any questions I had.
  • She knew a lot.
  • And she had the type of work where she could be out.
  • And so she could be out for the community
  • and speak for the community, which was awesome.
  • Because everybody else, for the most part, was in the closet.
  • Not everybody, but so many of us.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: I need you to set it up for me.
  • What I probably should have told you
  • is that in the final documentary,
  • they're not going to hear my questions.
  • PAT COLLINS: OK.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: OK.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: So when you answer something,
  • we'll start out with Patti Evans, take that again.
  • You should start it out with something like,
  • when I first met Patti Evans.
  • PAT COLLINS: Oh, gotcha.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: OK.
  • PAT COLLINS: I gotcha.
  • I didn't realize that.
  • Alright.
  • Well, when I first met Patti Evans,
  • she was at the Lesbian Resource Center.
  • And pretty gal, very friendly, very welcoming.
  • Told me all about what was in the gay community.
  • Where the Riverview bar was, about the Empty Closet.
  • I was thrilled to see a gay newspaper.
  • I'm a little kid from West Virginia, and look at this.
  • There's a paper, there's the Lesbian Resource Center,
  • the Gay Brotherhood, and eventually GAGV.
  • It was just, you know, I became just devoted to the cause.
  • And it gave me a place to help rebuild my pride,
  • because my parents had not disowned me,
  • but pretty much, when I came out to them.
  • Dad was a Methodist minister.
  • My mother's dad was a Methodist minister.
  • And all my uncles and aunts either
  • married or were ministers.
  • So it was, you know, it was not OK.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: So let's go back and talk to me
  • about the coming together of the women and men, which eventually
  • became the Gay Alliance.
  • Talk to me again about the process of that.
  • You know, what were the things that
  • were being talked about in bringing these two
  • genders together?
  • PAT COLLINS: When I came to the Lesbian Resource Center,
  • it was so small.
  • And we started using the Gay Brotherhood's space
  • once a week.
  • It really seemed like we should join efforts for gay pride,
  • to mix with one another.
  • I think for a while, women and men were standoffish back then.
  • And I didn't want to see that.
  • We needed to come together to bring our power together,
  • all of our resources together so we could make a bigger impact
  • and reach more gays out in the community that needed help.
  • And so I started talking about that.
  • And more and more people thought that was a good idea.
  • And I think the RIT group or University
  • of Rochester gay group came in and was interested.
  • And before we knew it, we did have
  • a group of eight gay groups in town
  • that thought we ought to come together, and so we did.
  • And I was thrilled with that.
  • And that's what let all these other services
  • to the gay community come forward.
  • The Speakers Bureau, the peer counseling, the meetings,
  • the library.
  • It was wonderful.
  • And it really enhanced bringing all our talents together.
  • It really enhanced the gay community tremendously.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Let me just follow up on that a little bit.
  • Talk to me about the passion that you had about working
  • with this organization.
  • What was it that prompted you to make a decision that this
  • is something I'm going to be really committed to?
  • PAT COLLINS: I became really committed to GAGV
  • because it was my life's blood.
  • It made me feel better about being gay and a lesbian.
  • It made me feel, you know, I had friends that I hadn't even--
  • I didn't know anybody in Rochester, but all of a sudden,
  • I had all these group of friends.
  • I served on the board of directors first time around.
  • And I just, you know, was thrilled to be a part of that.
  • My self-esteem was just rising up.
  • I felt so much more pride.
  • And it was just extremely meaningful to me.
  • I needed that.
  • I needed that help.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Now, what did you
  • think you were doing not only for yourself,
  • but for the community?
  • PAT COLLINS: I felt we were bringing a major source
  • of pride to the community.
  • We were bringing awareness to the straight community
  • that we were there, and we're not going away.
  • And that we had something to offer.
  • Through educational programs we helped change minds
  • and helped people understand who we were
  • and that we were great folks, good folks.
  • On one of the speaker engagements
  • that we went to out in Brockport, Judy and I,
  • they wanted to ask us, well, what's it like being gay?
  • Well, we get up in the morning, we brush our teeth
  • and we go to work and work and come home.
  • And we have hobbies and fun things to do.
  • We ride our bikes.
  • And then some of us, but not all of us,
  • go help with the Gay Alliance offerings.
  • And you know, they were just amazed
  • that it wasn't totally weird and that we did not go running out
  • to dance every night and sleep with everybody in town,
  • you know.
  • That was not our goal.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: It's interesting that you know,
  • as you were trying to bring the men
  • and the women together at the Gay Alliance, gay men
  • and lesbians have not always had the most congenial
  • relationship.
  • I don't know if it's animosity or just
  • the lack of understanding of the differences
  • of our genders or what.
  • Can you talk to me a little be about getting over
  • some of that challenge?
  • How did you bring men and women together
  • when there was such this animosity between the two
  • groups?
  • PAT COLLINS: Yeah.
  • When I first came to the Lesbian Resource Center,
  • the lesbians were, many of them were separatists.
  • And that meant they didn't want to be around gay men either.
  • The gay men felt rejected, I think, by the lesbians.
  • But they also were very into themselves and their activities
  • that they didn't want to have anything to do with lesbians.
  • Or they were running around with what do you call it?
  • Gay hags?
  • Which were more their preference.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: Fag hags.
  • PAT COLLINS: Fag hags, that's right.
  • The women, straight women who preferred
  • to hang out with gay men.
  • But I didn't feel any animosity towards gay men.
  • I had only known one gay man in Charleston, West Virginia
  • or the guys at the bar.
  • But you know, I didn't get to know them well.
  • But I didn't feel any of that animosity at all,
  • and I didn't understand why we wouldn't come together
  • and pool resources so that we could be stronger.
  • And so I just talked to people individually,
  • the gay men, the gay women.
  • And we pulled in--
  • well, when I first got to Rochester
  • at the women's Lesbian Research Center there was Patti.
  • And then there was this major diesel dyke and her major fem.
  • And the diesel dyke really scared a lot of the lesbians
  • away.
  • So you know, in time, I helped turn that around
  • so that we had more women that weren't diesel dykes coming.
  • I mean, nothing against them, but we
  • need to not scare people, especially our own people.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: I'm not sure you want to say that.
  • PAT COLLINS: No, I'm not sure.
  • But anyway, because I didn't have any prejudice ahead
  • of time and because I was a unifier,
  • I've always been a unifier person, and it just made sense.
  • So I started talking one on one.
  • And eventually, we got together.
  • Got to know Tim Mains.
  • He was working on the newspaper.
  • I was just so impressed with what he was doing.
  • He'd be out there slaving away doing it all by himself when
  • others couldn't come and help.
  • I would go over and help a little,
  • that wasn't my strength.
  • People, see, and talking to people was my strength.
  • So I think, you know, helping, talking one on one.
  • Letting them get to know me and know I wasn't scary,
  • and knowing I really cared about them and about the movement,
  • you know.
  • Let's get a movement going here for ourselves.
  • That I think I did some good there,
  • helped move us closer together.
  • You know, I liked the guys.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Judy, I'm going to get to you in a second.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: That's OK.
  • Take your time.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: I want to talk about the CETA grant.
  • You helped John-- as I understand it,
  • you helped John write that.
  • Did you?
  • PAT COLLINS: Yeah.
  • John--
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Tell me the story about CETA grant--
  • PAT COLLINS: OK.
  • Sure.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: --from the beginning and working
  • with John.
  • PAT COLLINS: Well, we had the Gay Alliance going now.
  • And it had been going well for a few years.
  • And we decided let's go for a CETA grant
  • and get somebody down here so when
  • people need to come there'll be somebody here on staff.
  • So we wanted to get a part time executive director.
  • And so that seemed--
  • John Noble suggested it.
  • That seemed the best thing to do.
  • So John and I worked on it.
  • He did most of the work.
  • And then we helped facilitate it.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Define for me first what is the CETA grant?
  • What was it?
  • What was it that you were actually applying for?
  • PAT COLLINS: We were applying for income for a staff
  • member for the Gay Alliance.
  • And got the money and were able to hire someone.
  • And we had someone there to answer phones,
  • to talk to people when they came in.
  • All the time, you know, as long as during those hours.
  • Which meant a lot.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: So then take me through the process
  • of actually getting the money.
  • Because even though you were approved,
  • there was a little bit of controversy there.
  • PAT COLLINS: Oh yeah, once we got that approval,
  • there was a lot of controversy in the community when
  • they found out about it.
  • And a lot of people did not want us to have it.
  • There was a whole big hoopla.
  • But you know, we had the check.
  • It was signed, sealed, and delivered.
  • And so they weren't able to take that away from us,
  • and that was a thrill.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Can you talk a little bit more
  • about the community chest not wanting to administer the money
  • and then eventually Bill Johnson coming in there with the Urban
  • League?
  • PAT COLLINS: The Urban League was--
  • I mean, the United Way was what we expected
  • to help administer the grant.
  • That was a logical place to go.
  • And they didn't want to do it.
  • Major resistance.
  • And so I was amazed, because they
  • would administer so many grants to so many minority
  • organizations.
  • And so we were really stuck.
  • We weren't sure what we were going to do,
  • and we talked to Urban League.
  • And Bill Johnson, the executive director at that time,
  • helped make that happen.
  • And so he administered it.
  • God bless his heart.
  • That made all the difference.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Talk to me just a little bit about John Noble.
  • What was he like?
  • What was it like working with?
  • PAT COLLINS: Oh, I enjoyed John a lot.
  • A fun guy, a hard worker, very knowledgeable,
  • a great asset to GAGV.
  • And we got along great.
  • The whole board got along well.
  • We didn't have fights or anything.
  • We just worked and worked until we could come up
  • with the best thing for GAGV.
  • And all of us were extremely dedicated.
  • I really enjoyed John.
  • And when I went into financial planning,
  • he referred me to all of his brothers.
  • And so they all are my clients.
  • And John is just a great guy.
  • I'm very happy that he has a partner.
  • They've been together for years now.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Let's talk about some of the fun stuff,
  • the social life for gays and lesbians in Rochester.
  • You know, what was it like back then?
  • You know, what were some of you favorite places
  • that you were going out?
  • Where did you meet gay people?
  • PAT COLLINS: Well, I tell you, at GAGV, we
  • worked so hard for gay advocacy that we almost never had
  • time to be lesbians and gays.
  • You know, we didn't have time to have sex or meet up
  • with anybody we were working so hard.
  • But that's not totally true.
  • But we all felt like it sometimes.
  • But when we finished our meetings at nine or ten
  • at night, we'd all go to our separate bars.
  • The men would go to theirs and I'd go over to the Riverview.
  • Well, you walk in the Riverview and it was like Cheers.
  • It was just, you know, you knew folks.
  • It was very enjoyable.
  • A small but nice little bar.
  • The owner was very gracious to all of us.
  • You'd get a drink and play some pool.
  • And I love to dance, so we danced.
  • You know, we would just get a chance
  • to talk further about social things about each other instead
  • of just gay advocacy stuff.
  • And that was a really nice thing to get to do.
  • And if you were lucky, sometimes you'd go home with somebody.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Judy, let's move on to you.
  • In the 1970s you separated from the husband,
  • you got a couple kids.
  • And you're starting to embark on this coming out process.
  • Tell me about that process of coming out.
  • And more importantly, talk to me about what was available to you
  • information wise and resource wise.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: Sure.
  • When I began to come out, my children, I was divorced.
  • My children were preschoolers.
  • They were taking up the bulk of my time, of course.
  • But I was going to graduate school,
  • back in graduate school.
  • And a young student at U of R told me about the Lesbian
  • Resource Center.
  • And she didn't have a car, I did.
  • And so I gave her a ride over and we'd started
  • coming to the weekly meetings.
  • And the library there was invaluable.
  • To be able to read positive kinds of books,
  • although there weren't that many positive books back
  • then, but at least to read occasionally something that
  • was positive and to talk to other women
  • about what was happening in our lives.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: That's fine.
  • At the same time, there was also a women's movement,
  • a feminist movement going on, but they were not
  • too keen on allying themselves with the lesbian
  • movement at all.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: No.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Can you talk to me a little bit
  • about that environment?
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: Sure.
  • Yes, the gay rights movement and the women's movement
  • developed simultaneously.
  • And there was a lot of crossover from one to the other,
  • although no one wanted to acknowledge that.
  • The women's movement was afraid of being labeled.
  • Back then, the insult for men who
  • were wanting to get at women who were too uppity, too
  • outspoken, too self-assured, too assertive,
  • was to call them a lesbian.
  • And so the label was very threatening
  • to the feminist movement.
  • Lesbian movement, on the other hand,
  • often wanted to go a little farther
  • than the feminist movement wanted to go, you know,
  • in terms of advocacy.
  • So there was friction between the two of them.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: How did you feel about that personally?
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: Well, as a lesbian
  • I considered myself a lesbian feminist.
  • And that worked well until we added the descriptor that I
  • was a lesbian feminist mother.
  • And the feminist mothers weren't too
  • sure about a lesbian mother.
  • And the lesbian mothers weren't too
  • sure about a feminist mother.
  • And the lesbian mothers weren't too
  • sure about a lesbian mother.
  • Back then lesbians were--
  • separatism defined the movement, I think to a large extent.
  • So it really was a significant contribution
  • that Pat was able to talk the men and women into talking
  • with each other.
  • Because the women, in particular,
  • I think, were through with men for the time.
  • And I was raising a son.
  • And I was told by some lesbians that I was
  • babysitting for the patriarchy.
  • And that it was bad enough I was raising my daughter,
  • but that I should give my son back to his father
  • and not raise another boy to the world.
  • So I was kind of caught in the cross currents between the two.
  • I don't want to omit the fact that there
  • were many lesbians in the community who were very
  • supportive of me as a parent.
  • And in fact, for some time we organized
  • a lesbian mothers group that would meet with our children
  • to let the children know that there were other children being
  • raised by a mom or two moms without a dad in the picture.
  • But it was a turbulent time personally and societally.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: I want to stick with your mothering
  • a little bit here.
  • Talk to me about the incident, there
  • was an incident I remember from my notes
  • about having to go to your son's school
  • because the health teacher was teaching misinformation.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: Yes.
  • On a whole, our school district where
  • we were raising the children I think
  • dealt relatively well with our being two mothers.
  • And Pat was welcomed at parent teacher conferences and so on.
  • But one time in junior high our son came home
  • and he was moaning and groaning about the health teacher.
  • And I said, well what exactly don't you like?
  • Well, it turned out he was making some anti-gay slurs.
  • He was talking about how if you touch a gay person
  • you can get AIDS.
  • Some very negative information.
  • So I made an appointment with the principal.
  • I went in.
  • I have to admit I didn't upfront say I'm a lesbian, because I
  • was too intimidated.
  • But it was pretty clear, I think, from our conversation.
  • And at the end of the conversation
  • the principal said, this will not happen again.
  • If it happens, let me know.
  • But I will stop it right where it is.
  • So I was very pleased with that.
  • I think not all school districts and school
  • personnel would have been so supportive back
  • in the late seventies, early eighties.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Well, you being busy going to school
  • and raising your kids, you did still
  • have some time to work with some of the Speakers Bureaus.
  • Is that correct?
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: Yes, yes.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Talk to me about that.
  • Talk to me about the Speakers Bureaus.
  • And what was it like being part of that?
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: It was, to some extent,
  • being part of the Speakers Bureau was exhilarating.
  • It let me put out in front who I was
  • and what I was in a proud way.
  • And whenever you speak positively
  • about who you are as a gay or lesbian person,
  • it reinforces your pride.
  • And so it was a good experience to that extent.
  • We'd go around and talk to college classes, occasionally
  • a church group, something like that.
  • Usually the panel was made up of two men and two women.
  • And as one of the two women, I was designated
  • as the lesbian mother.
  • And so people would ask me what life
  • was like as a lesbian mother.
  • And I'd tell them that I was woken up at 5:00 a.m.
  • and changed diapers and got breakfast done for the kids
  • and turned on the TV.
  • And they'd say, "But what's it like as a lesbian mother?"
  • I said, "There's no difference.
  • A lesbian mother is a mother.
  • And my sexual orientation does not affect my parenting."
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: You two have been together for a while.
  • PAT COLLINS: Thirty-five years.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Thirty-five years.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: Yep.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Active in the community,
  • supportive in the community.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: Oh gosh, yes.
  • PAT COLLINS: Very much so.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Whoever wants to go first, tell me what are you
  • most proud of.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: I'm most proud of the family
  • that I helped nurture and create.
  • Pat came on the scene when the children were still
  • preschoolers.
  • And they very much consider her their other mother,
  • other parent.
  • And in fact, when our daughter was married,
  • her biological father was at the ceremony.
  • And Laura had Pat and I walk her down the aisle.
  • So creating the kind of family bonds.
  • I had a successful career.
  • I feel good about that.
  • I did a lot of community service work,
  • both within the gay and lesbian community and the broader
  • community.
  • But to me, creating that strong, vital, loving family unit
  • is the thing I'm most proud of.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Pat?
  • PAT COLLINS: I'm very proud of what we've done as parents.
  • Our children have grown up to be wonderful human beings,
  • loving and caring and thoughtful of others
  • and supportive of the handicapped
  • and the gays and lesbians and other minorities.
  • We did that because we sent them to the Y downtown
  • during the summer for camp to experience
  • being around more blacks.
  • We really took them to camp when we were in senior citizen camp
  • to help be little runners.
  • And so they were right there in with us on all our service
  • work that we did.
  • And we were very active with the Unitarian Universalist church.
  • That was the one place where the kids
  • could know that it was OK for them to be out
  • and for us to be out.
  • But other places we told them that people aren't open-minded,
  • so we can't.
  • So I sat down and told them this long story
  • about who's open-minded and who is close-minded.
  • And then they really got it.
  • And so we--
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: They were still preschoolers.
  • PAT COLLINS: Yep.
  • And so we went off to get ice cream.
  • We marched down the street.
  • "We are open minded, we are open minded."
  • So it was wonderful.
  • I have a wonderful family.
  • I have a glorious, wonderful, beautiful, loving wife
  • that I'm just so thrilled.
  • And next comes my contribution to the Gay Alliance,
  • because it helped me so much.
  • I got more out of it than anything I gave.
  • But I did give a lot, and I loved it.
  • I just loved it.
  • And when I didn't understand that all gays didn't
  • like each other and weren't going along,
  • it was just like, what?
  • What?
  • We're a minority, we've got to hang together.
  • No infighting.
  • It's not allowed.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: So when you look at where we are today,
  • what are the challenges that we still have to face?
  • PAT COLLINS: Well, we've got to get the national laws saying
  • that marriage is just between a man and woman revoked.
  • That's got to go.
  • And then we really have to have a president strong enough
  • to say then we have to recognize gay marriage
  • in this country, period.
  • Look at all the other countries all around the world
  • that have passed that.
  • We're the only one that hasn't done that.
  • It's just unreal, unreal.
  • So I do think one of the biggest problems
  • is that until women are considered absolutely
  • equal with men, then the straight men that
  • get hung up about gay men will never go away.
  • Because they see a man being like a woman if they're gay.
  • And that's not OK in their mind.
  • So we got a long way to go that direction.
  • And religiously, a lot more education
  • has to be done in that area.
  • A lot more.
  • I'm working in that area.
  • I'm a minister with the United Church of Christ,
  • and at Chautauqua institution for the last fourteen years.
  • I've been there serving as the metropolitan community chaplain
  • and leader of the gay and lesbian group
  • and run two lesbian conferences, gay and lesbian conferences.
  • And that's been very good.
  • So again, we've spread around who we are
  • and that we're OK folks.
  • And just get to know us and love us.
  • So I've done a lot there too.
  • We've got a lot of support that we didn't have before.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: I think--
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Judy, we have just a little time
  • left here, but yeah, biggest challenges or your advice
  • to the future generation.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: Well, not a challenge, well yes,
  • a challenge.
  • I think the biggest thing that we can all do
  • is be as out as we can.
  • When you sit face to face with another real person
  • and they talk about their life and their issues, their pains,
  • their challenges, it's very hard to give them a label
  • and write them off as "one of them."
  • Not everyone even today even can be totally out, particularly
  • around jobs or families.
  • But if we could each be as out as we could.
  • Come out to everyone whose reaction is not
  • going to threaten our well-being either financially
  • or emotionally, then we can move into the next stage
  • where we're not going to be having
  • to talk about the differences and the similarities.
  • We just will all be people.
  • But I think we're a ways away from that.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Well, thank you.
  • PAT COLLINS: Oh.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: No, thank you.
  • PAT COLLINS: Thank you.
  • This was a pleasure.
  • JUDY LAWRENCE: You are very good at what you do.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Thank you.
  • PAT COLLINS: Oh, you're excellent.
  • KEVIN INDOVINO: Well, you were asking me if I'm--